Awesome, thanks! I guess I'll get the hang of it eventually :3
OldEggNewTricks
joined 4 months ago
Wow, that eye makeup is on point! Can you share what products / techniques you're using? I've found it almost impossible to get anything other than gel eyeliner to stick.
I guess I've been having thoughts of "if I was a girl..." or "if I was trans..." for as long as I can remember. Definitely had a few times of "please let me wake up as a girl tomorrow" when I was 12/13 or so, but I got quite good a suppressing that. The "if..." thoughts were fine, of course, since I clearly wasn't trans or a girl...
Fast forward to about six weeks before my 40th birthday; following quite a few trans women online and starting to question my gender. But since I'm perfectly happy being cis, that's fine, no problem. I'll be an Ally.
Two weeks or so pass, start looking at egg_irl. A day or two later, everything comes crashing down and it's panic time. That lasts a few days and now I know: I'm a trans girl, and I want to transition. Came out to my family, started growing my hair, painting my nails, buying neutral-to-fem clothes etc. Stopped wearing obviously masc-coded stuff pretty much right away (even when going out). Made appointments for laser and HRT consultation.
About six weeks later, research indicates the doctor is probably going to make me wait 6 months to a year for HRT, so I order DIY. That arrives two weeks later (yesterday), and here we are.
Not using new pronouns or name yet, but I feel that might happen fairly soon.
Hooray! Thanks to Kaity <3
Didn't think I had any more egg left to crack, but I'm feeling very called out here! Generally unable to keep up with guy-talk, but get on really well with women and children. And you say transitioning gets you more of this? Bring it on!
Waiting...
... for my hair to get long enough for even a short feminine cut. I don't really feel like wearing a wig, but I guess I might try a cute headscarf.
... to lose weight. I'm going about as fast as I safely can, and it's noticeable, but there's still a lot to go.
... for hair removal. Seeing the effects already, but gotta wait at least a month between appointments.
... for hormones. First appointment in six weeks or so. At least there's DIY as a fallback.
But! I'm out to my family, and my immediate coworkers (I work from home anyway). So I can wear what I want, practice my voice and makeup, and things are good. I don't wear anything more boyish than women's jeans and a semi-fitted T-shirt (OK, fairly neutral), and I guess I'll just tell anyone who asks. Just wish I could see in the mirror how I feel.
Fingers crossed! Let's show that beard the door 👉
Had a nice long chat with the wife. Basically explaining the story so far, all those obvious-in-hindsight things. Talked about how I want to start HRT, and what that will entail. She's cool with it becoming a same-sex marriage, and went as far as to say "I know you're not the type to fool around, but if you decide you like men instead, that's OK with me".
Since coming out things have been noticeably friendlier (not in a euphemistic way, just actually talking about stuff in a warmer tone). Which is surprising, but I'll take it!
Things might all turn out OK after all. ☺️
I'm wondering if that's going to change once I get on E. It's possible I just have (literally) thick skin.
Looking at a chart I guess maybe ash blonde? It started almost white when I was very young (and bits of it are heading that way again). Facial hair is a bit more of a dark reddish-brown.
If I end up prepping for SRS, I think that's going to have to be electrolysis (TMI? sorry)
I have already altered the ~~deal~~ gender; pray I do not alter it any further.
Seconded! Forced myself to do some voice training yesterday, and just... kept going for most of the rest of the day. Every time the playback sounds just right is worth a hundred mistakes.