If you haven't, and are emotionally capable, it may be worth reading the DSM I - V (1 through 5). The DSM 5 was really wild to read when I was in my psychology courses, and the DSM 4 is full of a lot of the systemic issues that are still present today. The DSM 5 only came out in 2013, the DSM 4 in 1994 then DSM-Text Revision in 2000 so... Imagine all the doctors who went to school on the even older DSM 3 in 1980 or the even older doctors who may have been in school when the DSM 2 in 1968....
Yeah, a lot of stigma came from those texts. As such, they can be a really powerful tool for your problems right now, but they might also be triggering. So not sure if it's the best suggestion, but that's my contribution.