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I still have prominent scars from the time SSRI withdrawal triggered psychosis and I went apeshit on myself with a knife. absolutely never again
That sucksssss. I remember feeling the zaps for a few nights and feeling entirely disconnected from reality. I couldn't tell if I was awake or in a dream. I would close my eyes and fantasize about whatever I could to pretend I was somewhere else to ride it out. Then when at work during the day, I was pretending that I wasn't exhausted from severe lack of sleep. I would have to go to the bathroom to take breaks and recover a little and convince myself everything was okay. I even asked someone I got a long with to make sure I didn't look weird or did anything stupid.
Seems like the withdrawal hit you a lot harder than me, so I can't even imagine how difficult that was to endure.
I know exactly what you mean about the zaps and feeling disconnected. did you get the thing where you could hear your eyeballs moving? I thought I was actually losing it but after looking it up it seems to be a common SSRI withdrawal thing. aside from the zaps and, y'know, stabbing myself, that was the most maddening part of it for me.
OMG yessss!! But it wasn't like I could literally hear my eyeballs moving. I wasn't a sound. It was like a feeling in my ears as if moving my eyeballs would tickle or vibrate my inner ear.
I'm happy the stabbing didn't result in much worse. Glad you're still around 🙂
thanks and likewise :)