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I think I've been brainwashed. Sometimes it's really hard for me to break out of the spell that has clearly been cast on me and makes me think inside a tiny little box. It's very frustrating, especially when I'm thinking through things and I end up reaching some roadblock, I realize my own misconceptions and discordances. In a way, that's great, that I'm able to think things over and realize something's wrong about what I thought, on the other hand though it's a pain in the ass.

I think digital piracy is an objectively good and moral thing to do.

That's a bit of a hot take, I realize, but I really believe that. I've always been a pirate and I'll probably continue to sail the digital seas until my death, but I've done it flying a couple of erroneous flags. The first, was the simple fact that I had no access to the things I was pirating. I couldn't afford them! My parents wouldn't buy them for me and I had no way to make money, so I couldn't buy them. There were no movie theatres where I lived, no CD or DVD shops, no game stores, and the online services that were available were either too expensive or too inconvenient to be of any use. The only way for me to get these things was to pirate them. This is a ridiculous notion, of course. The reality is that I could buy these things if I really wanted to, it's just that I prioritized other investments. There's also the rather obvious fact that I could just... Not get the things at all. I mean, even if I couldn't afford something, maybe I just shouldn't have it! I think that particular rebuttal is terrible and wrong, but it is something I hadn't even considered for a long time, as a kid. The second flag was something I ended up thinking a bit later in life, when I developed a more advanced (if still weak) sense of reason. It was that it was wrong to pirate, period, but I just didn't care.

"Yes, I'm a bad person, but I don't care."

I think this one isn't that bad, actually. It's cringe and self-aggrandizing, sure, but it does make a fair point. The idea that lays in this sentiment of willing-evil is that piracy is good, actually, I just can't put into words why it's good. I believe that what makes something bad is our unwillingness to do it. First of all, I see morality as relative and individual, and that if we do something and don't feel bad about it, then it cannot be wrong, by our own personal standards. Even as I said that piracy was bad, but I just didn't care, I was admitting that piracy wasn't bad, actually, because I didn't care.

Still, it was very poorly worded.

Now, I fly what I believe to be the correct banner: the nobility of art. Art is meant to be shared, internalized, analysed, explored, understood, and appreciated. If art isn't any of that, then it isn't art, it serves no purpose it has no place it is nothing. Now, me watching a pirated show doesn't give it any more value than some rando watching it legally, but allow me raise the point that what I'm doing by enjoying a piece of art is not a bad thing, no matter how you put it. I'm doing what is supposed to be done. How I get there doesn't harm anyone, doesn't cause pain or distress, and, simply put, I don't feel bad doing it, so how can it be bad? Well, I think it isn't. So no part of what I'm doing is bad, so what I'm doing as a whole cannot be bad. So it's not bad. There!

I don't deny the fact that piracy may contribute to shows getting cancelled when they don't pull in enough capital, that not paying small artists for their work can lead their passion to become unsustainable, yes all of that is true. Then again, I raise the question of whether that should be true. Sure, what I'm participating in can have negative consequences, but should it? Should the free sharing of art have negative consequences? Should someone's livelihood depend so intensely on selling something that should be shared regardless? Should my dollars staying in my pocket mean that a movie that should be made, isn't? I don't think so. I think that the way things are set up is the problem, I think that, if digital piracy causes problems, then something is wrong with the system. The way art is created and the way artists make their living is wrong. That's what I think.

I don't want this to sound like I'm blaming artists somehow, that's not the point. The thing is that art should be valued, yes, but not commodified. Art shouldn't be gate-kept by dollars it should be open and free. The fact that it isn't is a problem. The fact there's a debate about whether or not digital piracy is bad is indicative that there's something out there---the way things are done---that's bad.

Hopefully I managed to get the point across.

I realize it sounds a little weak. Some people might even think that it sounds like an excuse to continue something good, a sort of double-think. I disagree. I really think that digital piracy is a good thing for being a vehicle for the sharing of art, and that every complaint laid against piracy should be redirected towards capitalism, I guess. Not sure if capitalism is the right culprit here, necessarily, there's a lot that capitalism can be and good is one of those things, in my opinion, even if it often fails its people. Whatever.


Yesterday I read just a bit of Babel. I liked this chapter much more, but for some reason I just didn't finish it. Maybe I got a bit anxious and had a hard time getting through it? Not sure, not sure. Today I'll try and give it a solid go.

Also, I came across this podcast called Timesuck. Seems really cool, though I haven't listened to enough of it to make a definite judgement.


I had a lot of fun today.

 

I end up thinking about The Magnus Archives pretty often. My best guess as to why is that the show is a mix of narrative storytelling and anthology, which by their very nature collect disparate and unique experiences into a single story. In other words, there's just a lot of stuff in MAG so there's a lot of stuff that can remind me of MAG.

Still, it pains me. Every single time, it pains me. The Magnus Protocol isn't as good as MAG, not even close. Well, that's an unfair assessment, I suppose, but I don't like it nearly as much. What made MAG great to me were the stories, not the plot. The plot was great, don't get me wrong, but it was the cherry on top, not the main dish. The many characters, the fears being slowly introduced, weird interpretations of classic tropes, that's what made MAG amazing, that's what makes it my favourite audio drama of all time.

Then I'm left thinking: How? I love character depth. I love exploring the minutiae of a person and laying bare their flaws, their inconsistencies, I love learning about what makes them tick, what makes them human or monstrous, or both, but the anthology side of MAG isn't good at that. Sure, there are recurring characters that get gradually explored at a snail's pace, but the best episodes tend to be the ones where we learn very little about the characters. The answer is the world, that's what carries MAG. Learning about this weird and terrifying world, one episode at a time, illuminating its darkest corners, crossing the most dangerous intersections.

The world is the main character.

Maybe they caught lightning in a bottle and MAG simply can't be replicated. I'd like to think that's not the case, but it's hard to keep up hope after searching for so long and finding nothing that even comes close. The typical recommendations are good, sure, but they're not The Magnus Archives.

I'll keep looking, I'm always looking.


I read only 1 chapter of Babel last night. Time played a role, but really I just didn't enjoy that one chapter very much. It was technically good---R. F. Kuang has fantastic prose---but narratively it left something to be desired, or at the very least it leaned on a part of the narrative that I'm less interested in.

It did leave me thinking about secret societies and shadow organizations. I love the idea of villainous cabals (forgive the pleonasm). Really, there's too much good in the world... Weird thing to say, seeing how much evil there is, but I think there's an odd sort of middle-ground that we've yet to strike.

Here's my take: if there was a terrible organization focused on causing chaos (rather than pain) without any motive, the world would be better. It would be more... Whimsical, to have a force of actual evil. Not a terrorist organization with a goal or some sentiment for this or that, but a group of individuals focused on inconveniencing at the institutional level. Wouldn't that be funny? I'm a strong believer in quid pro quo. I believe that if such an organization were to arise, an equal and opposite force for good would also spring up. That would be delightful, I think.


I've thought up something about that story I've been thinking about. I'll go ahead and make a skeleton, a scaffold I can build on. Basically, I'll write up the story without the majority of details and then go back and fill them in. I'm aware this isn't a novel idea (pun intended) but if it works, it works.


I'll be reading more Babel tonight.

 

I've been thinking about this for a very long time. Many years. I suppose that's really not that long, in the grand scheme of things, but it feels like a long time to me.

I read a lot, I always have. In recent years I've been reading less than I once did, but every so often I get back into the habit, especially when a new book comes out (or I finally learn of a book that has been out) that interests me.

I started reading Babel, by R. F. Kuang a couple of days ago and I've been loving it. I read Book I and found it contained everything I love about fiction. There was whimsy, passion, intrigue, but also depth, politics, and social commentary. I love books that talk (and criticize) the way things are.

Still, as I read it I just couldn't shake the drive to write something myself. It's not that I have that much to say, not really, though I do have some things I think are worth reading, but it's more that I love the written form so much that I feel a need to contribute to it. I feel the need to write something because otherwise it's like I took without giving back, I read without writing. I know this is silly, totally and utterly silly, but I can't help it.

I have story ideas, some of which I've tried to put to paper (pixel), but I always end up dropping the undertaking before anything gets going. The worst part of this is that I know I need to write to get better, but writing is so hard I find it almost impossible to force myself to push through my painful mediocrity to reach the promised shangri-la of tolerable prose.

At the end of the day, I manage to convince myself there will be other people that see the world the same way I do, or at least close enough that the differences are negligible, and they can be the one to write what I want to. That's terrible, that's such a terrible way to think, even as I write this I see how terrible it is but the notion has dug itself a very comfortable home in my mind. Is this what Orwell meant when he spoke of double-think? The conviction that something is wrong and yet the knowledge that it is right? Maybe I'm stupid. Or sick. Both are equally bad.


Today was a decent day, I didn't really do much. I watched a livestream, as I usually do, had a mediocre lunch, ate a pack of cookies, drank enough water to drown a small child, and did some work. I should've done more work, but I have time, and time lets me push things back, and back, and back, until I don't have any more time.

There was a clock in the game the streamer was playing, but she could move the hands at will.

The back tire of my bike was deflated, somehow. I'm not sure if there's a hole or not.


One story idea I've been itching to get out is kinda like Groundhog Day meets Love is War. A guy is forced to relive the same day until he manages to get a girl to fall in love with him. The twist is that the girl is already in love with him and she simply refuses to admit it, just as he refuses to admit he's in love with her. It's not a fantasy setting, but I always imagine lots of fantasy elements... I'm not sure if the guy is going insane or what, but I love the idea of him seeing the world as very magical. The girl has a witch hat and casts spells. They don't really work, but he feels like they work. It's comedic, whimsical, I love that. Eventually, he just confesses to the girl, desperate, and she decides to go on a date with him. The loop breaks.

I don't know, I think it could be really cool. I suppose what really makes or breaks a story, especially a romantic comedy, are the small things. The secondary characters, the tiny interactions, the small words and little sentences, the shrugs and the sighs, so delineating an idea has no merit whatsoever. I have to write it.

Whatever.

The day isn't over just yet, I might write a bit. Or not. I'll think about it. I will read though, of that I'm pretty sure. A couple chapters at least. I'm really loving Babel.

I've been listening to Opus, by Ryuichi Sakamoto. It's really good. Recommended.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 2 points 3 months ago (5 children)

why would we want cooties?! so wrong!!

 

I think this meme is really funny...

 
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[Frieren] I'm going insane (cdn.myanimelist.net)
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Anxiety is starting to take hold of me.

If brain-in-a-jar theory is correct, I'm currently being absolutely DRENCHED in some sort of anxiety inducing chemical; my hands are clammy, sweaty, my knees are weak, and I can smell my mom cooking some spaghetti so I'm pretty sure we all know what's about to happen...

I was waiting for Sousou no Frieren to finish airing to gauge people's reactions to the ending before I decide whether or not to watch it, but I caved.

Everyone and their momma is talking about this show, FOMO got me

But now what I feared most is coming true, and I can't help but tremble at the prospect of Frieren ending on a cliffhanger. There's 4 episodes left in this season. If Madhouse hits me over the head with a cliffhanger and I have to wait a year for season 2 they might as well cast Zoltraak directly into my heart.

Has anyone read the manga? Am I going to suffer terribly for my rash decision?

Also, this show is really good right?! Love it very much so far, no wonder it's topping MAL, I wonder if we really do have an all-timer on our hands.

[–] gon@lemm.ee 1 points 9 months ago (2 children)

I want to know how this turned out

 

Teams with 9+ wins so far this season:

Teams with 9+ wins so far this season

I mean, most of these are to be expected, right? Sixers, Celtics, Bucks, Nuggets... These were all favourites coming into the season, and they're all performing more or less as predicted (Sixers are over-performing and Bucks are under-performing based on my own personal expectations but still great overall).

I can even get behind the Wolves. I didn't have them being this good, but the roster was promising. Ant is wreaking havoc on the league, KAT and Gobert are both doing well, and Jaden McDaniels is fine too. Then, they have some pretty good players rounding out the roster, such as Mike Conley, Naz Reid, and Kyle Anderson. They're elite defensively (5th), but only average offensively.

And then... The Thunder? I mean, sure, SGA is still SGA, and we all expected Chet to be good (or at least OK to start). But good enough for 2nd in the West? The same West with Kevin Durant, Anthony Davis, LeBron James, Luka Doncic, Kyrie Irving, Nikola Jokic, De'Aaron Fox...? Not to mention other All NBA level talent and nigh-All Star players, and just other great teams (Cavs, anyone?).

OKC isn't just doing OK, they're not just staying above water either, they're WINNING! Look at this:
Record as of 20/11/2023

They beat the Suns (with KD and Beal), the Warriors (with Curry), and the Cavaliers (with Spida and Garland) twice!

Sure, we can't ignore their losses. The Kings beat them without Fox, NOLA beat them with a relatively inefficient night from both Zion and Hawkins, and the Nuggets blew them out. (The Warriors loss was a close game on the back of some ridiculously efficient shooting).

I mean, they're top 10 in both Offense and Defense right now, with their defense being the worse of the two. That's very impressive, IMO.

Do you believe in this OKC team? Do you think this is a flash in the pan, or the result of an easier early schedule (they haven't played any of the other 9+ win teams, except for Denver, a game in which they got blown out), or maybe something else entirely?

Are they contenders or pretenders?

[–] gon@lemm.ee 0 points 10 months ago (2 children)

I wonder if this is actually real. I could see it.

 

cross-posted from: https://lemm.ee/post/11386693


Beautiful and emotional!

I really liked this show. I was sceptical at first... I think it's very easy for shows that surround something seemingly inconsequential (such as a high-school club) to severely overplay how much people actually care about these things. Hibike! Euphonium did this very well though, from the onset. I guess it's about managing expectations, and what the audience can expect from the characters by showing what the characters expect from each other. I really liked the set up.

I love how distinct each character is too. They have unique personalities and interests, though a bit cliché (the big silent guy, the bubbly girl, the cold beauty). The main character though was just something else. I really, really liked her! I love how she treats the people around her, it felt very human, I think this was just excellent writing. She's cold sometimes and bursting with emotion in the next scene, but it never feels out of place. We really get to explore how she sees the world and what she values in relationships, as well as how much she's willing to sacrifice in her personal life to achieve her goals. I just love Kumiko.

The animation was very good too. I guess that's to be expected from KyoAni. What I really appreciated, as someone who has played in a band for many years (trumpet), is that they didn't try to make the performances magical. A lot of sports and art anime (Haikyu!!, Blue Lock, Blue Period) depict their subject as sort of nigh-magical, with colours flying everywhere and cool names for special moves. Hibike! Euphonium leans more into realism, it doesn't try to make music seem magical, it just lets the music be magical, if that makes sense. I thought it was beautiful; in a way, it's the animation holding back, but it's just really well done.

The music of course was just fantastic. Don't have much to say on this subject in particular, it's a music anime, it has great music. I will say that I loved how much silence there was. Especially before and after an emotional performance, they just let the notes hang, letting the emotion build. Beautiful, I say!

The one criticism I have is that it's very short. It's only 13 episodes, and there's too many loose ends. I WANT MORE!!! Well, there is more of course but it's in the next season, which I haven't gotten to YET. This show is definitely worth a watch.

What do you think?


Rating: 4/5

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I review media. I categorize every piece of media into one of 4 categories:

  • Shows, for anything that's serialized, such as TV Shows and Audio Drama podcasts.
  • Movies, for anything that's one uninterrupted instalment with a large visual component, such as... Well... Movies (duh), musicals, and stand-up specials.
  • Albums, for music albums and, sometimes, musicals, if I didn't WATCH them, and only listened.
  • Books, for the written media, though it does include comics/manga as well.

You can find my Excel spreadsheet here, with the media I've reviewed up to this point with its corresponding ratings.


Ratings:

  • 5 - Very good.
  • 4 - Good.
  • 3 - OK.
  • 2 - Bad.
  • 1 - Very bad.
  • 0 - Horrible.