Oh damn I’m sorry to hear about that, hoping things get better for you
idk if this helps but when there’s too much noise outside or too much stress inside I like to put on the radio quietly to drown it out, there’s something about being tuned into static-laden local broadcasts that makes me feel less lonely and more connected, not caught in the crazy buzz of the global internet but also not wallowing away by myself. It’s very comforting for me.
MPD + Cantata
For the most part I just lump all my music into one playlist regardless of album or genre, but day to day I also use several different computers, and I find MPD to be the best for syncing configurations across all of them. Cantata also allows me to see album artwork and track information really easily and has good touchscreen support compared to terminal-based MPD clients.