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Renting a room in an old house. The landlady is one of the rare good ones and cooks for me somtimes so I'm trying to be handy where I can.

This light in my office died, and a few others in the house are in dire need of replacing. Rusted and covered in decades of caked on dust, probably hazardous.

I keep seeing units like this. https://a.co/d/iU3hAd3

But I'm wondering if I should get a few of those or get another bulb style ceiling lamps and just use LED bulbs?

If you've ever had a landlord try this rennoviction nonsense on you then you may want to express some opinions in the survey. Or better yet, if you can, attend the virtual meeting.

nearly 16 are now "infected" I've been studying this thing for like 2 years, my scientist mentioned they could "solve" it some time ago. But now even they have been adding to the garden. I'm wondering if my curiosity has doomed them all.

Some of my more startling dream experiences have involved beeps, and other old tech noises.

Last night I was having a rough one. Body temp was spiking and melatonin only kept me down for like 2 hours. I was in the danger zone for awhile.

I heard my roomate talking. Our relationship is a bit tense as I've had to kick them out, it's that awkward phase between when I've asked them to leave and them actually leaving. I worry they won't make it out there. But that's a differnt story.

Later I hear a long whine of their door opening. It's very diffent. Its the sound of a door but it's more organic like an animals cry. My eyes must be open because I can see them fumbling with their phone light trying to navigate in the dark. The light grows and shrinks over and over around my door. This seems to go on for awhile, I want to get up an figure out what the hec they are doing. But I can't seem to move.

It sounds now like they are putting their shoes on and and preparing to leave. They never leave the apartment. They have no job, family or friends. And at this hour?

I hear the heavy front door unlock.

BEEEEP! It's like in the old times when folks whould accidently hit a number on their phone during a call. That exact beep I havnt heard it years. It's loud and startles me into being awake. The noise was too loud to really source but I know by now it came from within my own head.

It appears to have just been a dream. Perhaps my roomate just used the bathroom, and my head filled in the rest.

This isn't the first time a beep has ended a dream like this. It's happened many times before with differnt beeps. Usually older sounding tech. I assume these are audio hallucinations. I have also heard loud blood curdling screams, and crying but those may have been junkies outside. They do that here.

Another simular example happened when I was very young likely only 9 or 10. I remember waking up and not being able to move. It was to early to wake up but the sun had risen. I hear a voice from a terrible speaker "hello" next to me in the corner of my room is a McDonald's drive through menu/speaker thing. The person on the other end asking for my order and sounded frustrated by my lack of response.

I'll also point out my phone alarm is just the phone vibrations, and not a beep. I'm usually awake before it goes off anyway. I have do not disturb mode on untill work starts so I don't get notifications at night.

Sorry for another "Is this autism or normal human behavior?" Post.

There's a long story as to why I am experiencing this again but it's not really any more relevant then the title of this post.

For older folk it's like that episode of the Simpsons where Lisa, out of pity, give Ralf Wiggim a valentines day card and he immediately starts invisioning a future with her as his romantic parter.

I've identified I have this same trait and I hate it. Looking back I've totally made people who had been nothing but kind to me uncomfortable and shut me out because of this.

Now knowing that I am doing this is at least making me a little more in control and hopfully less weird. But now I need to stop and asses every interaction I have which is itself awkward.

This is weird as I've only seen a few episodes of the show Rugrats when it was a new thing many many years ago. It was one of those things I only watched when home from school and sick. There was probably nothing better on. I don't particularly enjoy it. I am aware there is an "all grown up" spinoff but I've seen nothing from it.

Anyway to set the stage of this dream. It had Tommy now "Tom" is in high-school. "Chuck" is there but the others are just gone. They moved or ended up in differnt schools. He's being brave but he is terrified of the new setting. Cliche as hell.

Tom's father Stu is a huge YouTube personality. His inventions never sold well but people love seeing him invent cool stuff and being entertaining. Everyone knows his channel and he's generally regarded as a wholesome dude.

The dream is just an episode of this in which Tom has an argument with a teacher about somthing. Tom knows he is right but gets in trouble for refusing to back down on it. Stu is called by the faculty who also have no idea who he is. Tom is given a detention and misses some Halloween event as a result.

No one other than Chuck knows Tom is actually the son of this YouTube guy and Tom keeps this a secret from everybody.

While Tom is in detention he is watching his fathers new Halloween video. Stu appears on screen and this awesome 3D avatar of a deer skull in a bone theamed suit. There's even bones outlining his wild hair and a cool scepter. He sings a (possible original) song about "going your own way" and "making your own path" apprently he can sing really damn well.

Though everyone is watching this all around him Tom understand this video is just his father talking to him. It's like Stu is saying "authority is going to fight you, but hang in there".

I've been getting into, It's probably (not) Aliens. Somthing fun for long bus rides.

I'm not able to listen to or download or listen to anything right now though.

I've also noticed it's not on down detector so it's a bit difficult to tell of it's just a me problem or not.

I've been having a dought. It's a small nagging one but it's there.

I've been working a lot with my therapist on self hate issues, but I can acknowledge them.

I realized I can never really be in any kind of physical relationship with somone because of this. I'm repulsed by myself and perhaps my asexuality is just a result of that.

I wonder if I am so repulsed by myself that the idea of me being with anyone is rejected because of the "me" part and not how I feel towards others. Where some may think "I want to kiss that person" I can't bare the thought if subjecting somone to me in that way. And therefore the thought is gross.

Does anyone else deal with this? Any advice?

I am with Gore currently they are renewing my contract soon and raisng rate. I have never needed them so I cant really say if they are any good or not. But $40/mth seems kind of expensive.

I'm usually at the lowest rates. Other than my computer I don't own anything of much value. And I've never done anything to require a payout in over 20 years of renting. So I should be paying minimal levels.

I tried to call RBC about it setting up a plan. They told be they'd call me back at 5pm tommrow. That was about 2 weeks ago. So I took that as a red flag.

I got my subscription a few weeks ago. I'm kinda regretting going for a 1 year sub.

For one I thought both Kurzgesagt and CGP Grey where on here only to learn they both backed out of the project.

According to Wendovers video https://nebula.tv/videos/wendover-how-a-small-group-of-creators-built-a-150-million-business/. I get the sense this happened around the same time they sold a good chunk of the company to Discovery.

Seeing all the creators hang out on a yacht isn't exactly a selling point for me as a subscriber who's struggling to make rent.

I'm also pretty disappointed by the lack of some features. Many of the videos don't even have captions and the ones that do are using a poor quality auto capture. I also really want comments. I know YouTube comments are known for being utterly terrible, but education is a conversation and with channels like these commenters can provide a lot of added educational value.

Also the history feature would be pretty handy. I go down rabbit holes then totally forget where I left off when logging back in.

And even shorts, creators use those. I hate the YouTube shorts but if I where to abandon YouTube I'll lose out on that content. By using shorts the content creators are keeping me going to YouTube .

I've also noted a lot of content is still formatted to YouTube. They have the click boxes at the end for more videos wich isn't a function in Nebula. It's like the videos are ending with a broken UI.

Overall I'm seeing a lot of effort to make the platform appealing to creators. However, there's much less effort in appealing to subscribers. Long term that seems like it's going to cause the whole thing to fail.

I've been using Bell since prior to moving here. Everywhere I ask suggest that have the best "coverage". They even have 3 towers near my location. but neither my roommate or I can get a decent signal in our condo. I often miss calls or experience disconnects.

This is also true when out doing errands such as buying groceries. I usually send pictures to my roommate to confirm what I need to buy. But often need find specific places in the stores that have signal.

Does anyone else have this issue? also is there any provider which doesn't have this issue?

Solution

There was a wifi calling option on my phone. I was confused by the websites which made it sound like somthing that cost extra. Turns out you just need to provide an adress for 911 use then it just sorta works.

The "all new" feed is a bit of a mess regardless. Hundreds of porn links being posted on random@kbin.social. I can't tell if this is bots or some weird and intentionally random thing they are doing.