... Okay, sorry if this is off-tone but I really wanna see more adults shining their inner cuteness and carrying around plushies >:3 Among whatever other "inappropriate" things they wanna show. I saw someone outside who had a tail and damn near jumped out the window to go squee at them ๐ Super cool.
Maybe I'll start carrying a plushie around ๐ค At least in my purse or something. ... Oh wait, I'm trans. I might get shot for that ๐ค Probably worth it. ๐ญ๐
I've been playing a lot of Space Empires IV ๐ Am gonna keep trying stuff. May have another pass at my Itch library. I'm just kinda missing Elder Scrolls specifically, I guess, and though I could play Daggerfall and/or Morrowind, they just make me miss ESO ๐ Maybe I'll try anyway. scritches at imaginary itch ๐
I don't even know if the ancient attic wiring up here could handle a gaming rig ๐
Also, making calls and going places isn't just "difficult" for me. I get actually physically ill. Even (somewhat) medicated I can be stuck in the restroom anxing for an hour before going on a two-minute ride down the road to pick up snacks from the local shop. I will put off a simple call, incurring debts or penalties or whatever, for months or years just because I can't get myself to press the button to call. A lot of people say "Oh, it's like that for everyone" but it is not. "Everyone hates phones," people tell me, but few dread them.
...Unless it's like that for everyone and this world's even more asinine that I'd realized. Surely there's no way everyone's just accepted being terrified constantly. Maybe they have and I'm the only rational person on Earth, baffled that the people around me think panic is normal and I'm weird for not accepting that ๐ค ๐ฎโ๐จ
wobbles away mumbling