OldEggNewTricks

Objectively... quite good? But I feel terrible. The dysphoria is strong and I feel like I'm faking it.

• Told my wife explicitly I'm transgender. "Oh yeah," she says, "you always had that kind of an air about you." Now you tell me! Haven't talked about transitioning yet.
• Since my egg cracked the desire to stuff myself full of junk food and get drunk has just vanished. I'm eating healthier and WAY less.
• Tried putting on makeup; just copying tutorials so far, but apparently I resemble my mother. Was aiming for something a bit younger though :(
• Bought a BLÅHAJ. If I'm going to jump on the trans bandwagon I might as well have something to hug.
• All the clothes in the women's section are for people 20cm shorter and half my weight
• But I did find a cute hat. My face looks stupid beneath it, but I'm going to wear it anyway.
• I painted my nails, and I can't stop staring at my hands. Awww yeah :3
• Noticed that I actually have quite feminine fingers (and incidentally a noticeable cupid's bow). Win, I guess!
• I want to start HRT.
• Kind of hoping someone will call me a good girl?

Thank you <3

I'm honored, thank you! Billy Joel rocks!

Looks good to me! I think I'm going to try for the first time this weekend, and if the results are even half as good as yours I'll be sooo happy :3

Oh!!! That first page was posted on egg_irl, and really resonated with me too! Thanks, I'll check it out.

The comic I read is I want to be a cute anime girl.

Edit: Oh, and the "silly scribbles" such as this one

Hello! Totally get it about the body hair. Up until recently I was very anti-hair removal (anything cosmetic really), but now I realize that was just jealousy :P In the before times, I'd shave my pits every so often, but I didn't really know why and felt shameful. This week I've been taking long showers with a razor, and it's fabulous!

Since I'm new here perhaps I should share my story (I'll save the "so obvious in hindsight" episodes for another time).

T minus two years: Follow a link to Contrapoints for analysis on the alt-right, end up watching pretty much everything. Huh, gender philosophy is quite interesting.

T minus one year: one of Azul Crescent's comics pops up in the global Mastodon feed. It's cute so I start following. Wait, is this a trans comic? Probably shouldn't be reading this, but ...

T minus two weeks: strangely fascinated with the daily posts. Huh, so this is what trans women are like? Must be nice to grow boobs (SUPPRESS THOUGHT). Still don't really get the comic though, perhaps I'd better read it from the beginning.

T minus one week: aww, that's so sweet, wish I was like Cheryl (SUPPRESS HARDER). Oh, hey, she has a youtube channel talking about trans stuff. What's egg_irl?

Google.

Scroll.

Oh. Oh no. Oh noooooooo.

Today: egg fully cracked.

No, you're right - a large part of my recent panic has been "what if this destroys my family", and I know that's still on the cards. I thought about how I'd have reacted in the past if she'd come out as a trans man (probably very badly, although I'd be fine with it now), but eh, we've had our crises in the past (more than a few caused by my unhappiness) and pulled through. Que sera sera, and I'm cool with that.

Gorgeous!

Thanks for the kind words. To be fair I framed it more as "I'm thinking about trying this out" rather than "I'm gonna be a girl now", but here's hoping she comes around.

Sempai, that's awesome!

I know! This could be a really good bonding experience.

Hehe. I'm so glad to hear your wife supported your transition.