it's because initiating it is almost as hard as pronouncing this word
I remember just feeling numb like in disbelief that it was happening, I'm sure I have blocks of parts of that experience. I felt subhuman there.
At some point after returning home I just shut down, stopped communicating with anyone, and layed in bed for months.
lmao that's a funny way to put it. I honestly have no clue about outgassing, I've worn glasses my whole life and I don't recall ever having issues. I also have no allergies or sensitivities whatsoever though. My partner is sure that it's just eye strain or adjusting to the new "biome" of stale air you have for your eyes now, she just got a pair after needing them for years and she had a lot of trouble adjusting to them and still never wears them all the time.
I never would have thought of burning as a way to describe it but I looked it up and apparently it is a fairly common concern if you never wore glasses and got a large prescription, the glasses focus the light in on your eyes and your eyes aren't used to that. I actually do have trouble in daylight cause of my extreme prescription and never thought it could be possibly related to the glasses, I just thought it was that way due to my silver irides.
I figure you'd also have a rash if it was a sensitivity strong enough to make your eyes burn, but the only other things I could think of I feel you'd already have figured out... Not blinking enough cause no wind on your eyes to help trigger blinking, eyelashes getting in your eye, or eye fatigue from the correction and not taking breaks to look at something far away..
Remember when ads were just popup banners on the bottom of the screen?
I want to go there just to get the shirt tbh
It's not just a hospital too by the way. It was a murder short of feeling like I was in the asylum from outlast. Wailing, fighting, screaming and all other sorts of antisocial behavior, with the staff barely in control. At the least that was how it felt and being committed to that place beyond just preventing my possible suicide in the short term became a lasting traumatic experience.
this is me to a t almost
I've seen a big uptick in that word usage, I don't like seeing them and use a replacing extension to intercept and censor them to a more appropriate word, while showing an asterisk so I know it was censored. Now I don't have to see the word, but I still get to see who is being a bigoted jerk.
Edit: ya so I guess on lemmy people think it's cool to throw ableist slurs.
Better chat models exist ^w^
This one even provides sources to reference.
In capitalism, you have the capitalists, presiding above all, with made up ideological boundaries to keep them in-fighting. In communism the true boundaries are revealed, between the proletariat, the bourgeoisie, and the plutocrats.
How do I look? I've been feeling very euphoric with the new clothes but nervous if I pass or not..
But I've at least been feeling super cute lately and I try to push the doubts down. ^-^
Update: Thanks to a few of y'all who got me to look at things differently I think there was a miscommunication. I called my mom, and sorta cleared things up, they said they thought that my message out to them was saying I was planning on celebrating trans day of visibility, and not just mentioning it off hand after accepting the invite. I wouldn't be honest if I didn't say I am not fully convinced but I love them enough to forgive. Things have been rocky with them, my dad is teetering on the edge of ultra-conservative and still misgenders and dead-names me. In my mind there was a very real possibility my dad told my mom to dis-invite us after knowing it was a trans day.
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Kinda posting to just vent, family instantly cancelled when I just mentioned it was a trans awareness day.
Crazy thing is they know me, they know we're not religious, they know that all we'd like to do is just see family (most importantly the two doggos.) And now I'm not going to be getting to do that and I just feel pretty hurt after this. I've sent some messages back and forth and they've re-invited us, but without a clear explanation or sincere apology, my partner doesn't feel comfortable around them now. I agree with her, so we won't be going.
This is the first overtly discriminatory thing I have experienced from them, and it is just so strange this is what hill they decided to claim.
I hate being a social war politic pawn, any other situation, birthday falling on the same day, solar event, or an "acceptable" awareness day, would have been met with open arms. They've just treated us as degenerates.
I wasn't expecting or wanting anything, other than perhaps a minor acknowledgement, just getting cancelled on is bizarre and I can only see it as hateful or at least extremely overly defensive over my perceived motives?
Well idk after this I feel like on march 31st it would have been really fun if I spent the day misgendering them so they could experience a taste of some of the experiences I have. But I'm still just hurt, I would have loved to get a hug from my mom and sis and pet the dogs.
Hopefully this follows the rule and venting is ok, this is my first post here and I would have rather it be something more lighthearted but I just want support and validation after this.
These national tests are yeesh material tho. Subtle, or not so subtle, at least tangential to, eugenicist or nationalistic ideals.