Image description: four panel comic First panel shows hands holding a game boy with Pokemon Professor Oak saying "now tell me. Are you a boy? Or are you a girl?" Second panel shows a masculine presenting individual holding the game boy saying "Haha!, but of course I'm a ..." Third panel has the same person with a shocked expression. Fourth panel has the same person now presenting stereotypically fem in a pink top and a skirt, staring in the mirror with a tear of joy on her face.
In my case there was only ever the one excuse, which is that I thought the pain of being a social outcast (I'm never gonna pass) would be worse than the pain of dysphoria. I knew trans people and thought: "Damn, they must have been in a lot of pain. Unlike me; I'm only in a bearable amount of pain. I hardly want to unalive myself at all except sometimes."