It's... torture. Its unfair. Honestly being told that by so many people is kind of why I gave up for such a long time. If I ever tried again at all. All that same 'reinforcement' and 'feedback' thrown this way and I just got so tired of hoping to not disappoint people that I gave up and just stopped trying. If I was going to disappoint them anyway I might as well do it without torturing myself in the process, right?

I'm glad you pushed through. It's difficult as hell and to do it on your own and keep pushing, especially here in Canada where mental health supports are severely lacking? I don't know you but I'm proud of you.

[–] DrWeevilJammer@lemmy.ml 1 points 9 months ago

If I was going to disappoint them anyway I might as well do it without torturing myself in the process, right?

...but how do you keep yourself from torturing yourself for disappointing yourself?