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https://he-man.fandom.com/wiki/Orko

Orko from He-Man in 1986

I feel almost 90% aligned to your story..

Was diagnosed formally in my 40s... Described as "super high functioning" by my psychiatrist, but really just felt like I've white knuckled the years from age 8...

DM me if you want to chat...

[Edited to add]: 90% of my coping mechanism were self taught and had large similarities to what you describe.

I have burnt out completely twice and the recovery taught me to develop better coping methods.

My recent diagnosis has given me the final piece to better understand (retrospectively) how and why I've operated and grown the way I did.

Medication is actively helping me overcome the largest remaining parts as my career has become more senior and exec function failings became more pronounced.

Unsure if that is helpful to you, but I'm also happy to chat more thoroughly in a less open forum if you're interested or think it might be helpful.

It's also OK if just knowing you're not alone was what you were looking for...

I only skim read, but the provided link seems to me that opting out isn't an option:

However, if you would prefer to decline them, then you will need to close your PayPal account prior to the applicable effective date, as described in the user agreement.

they are illegal in Australia.... I remember how crap it was when it wasn't...

that looks like a first gen ipad, so photo taken circa 2011?!

smart watch with a "make my phone go bleep!" button....

I have a simple rule now: "in the case, or on my face".

Sunnies on my face? Clear pair in the case. Clear pair on my face? Sunnies in the case.

Case is in my EDC bag.. And DOES NOT EVER LEAVE THAT POCKET..

The ONLY exception is when sleeping, I have a bedside nose holder my clear specs go on.

THIS. Thankyou...

I've just had to explain to the 80yo grandmother that you can't yell at my 19yo son because his anxiety ticks are annoying you.

She went full send on telling him that no woman or friends would ever want to be around him unless he stopped.. She got even angrier because she yelled at him to stop, and the ticking got louder and more frequent.. (duh..)

The only way I managed to get even a glimpse of consideration out of her was to leverage her pride in being a "baby whisperer" as a grandmother, and explained that yelling at an anxious ND about their ticks is like yelling at a baby to make them stop crying...

Only then did she stop for even a moment and actually have a thought about what was happening...

She still yells at him, but at least now we have a way to puller her back a little, as this description makes her feel terrible enough about it, that she leaves him alone for a bit out of feeling guilty...

there are ways to make it easier; it's been gamified:

https://github.com/streetcomplete/StreetComplete

Available on FDROID.

When my partner stops to play pokemon go, I complete some Open Street Map info quests...

???

I'd love it if you could expand on this to help me understand better..

I've had meditation suggested to me many times, and I just don't get it...

It leaves me wondering "What am I missing?"!