...near a cafe somewhere

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X(m): Might have to return, been a while I've been out.

Stranger: Hi, I'm Lei Lei.

X: Hello, how's your day going?

Lei Lei: Fine, I saw you're not occupied at the moment.

X: Yes, I like the fact that you're straightforward.

Lei Lei: I think you're shy, but for all the necessary reasons. Doesn't hurt to talk right

X(m): I mean

X: Exactly! I like people who are open about themselves

Lei Lei: I saw your tattoos and your dress-up, your personality doesn't fit. I decided to join in!

X: Thank you, please tell me more about you

Lei Lei: Well in this world, there are girls and then there are humans. Girls behave in a certain pattern as expected by humans. I had two options, I chose to become a human.

Lei Lei: Now I was unpopular with girls, but I was open with guys. We had fun, but I was obviously shamed by them. The thing is if I care about the noise, I will be unable to live freely. Every person has their own reason to justify and judge, so it is as expected.

Lei Lei: I find shy guys like you attractive. I've been wanting to discuss actually.

X: I am blown away. I feel like you're different from other people. Instead of blending in the crowd, you allow yourself to blend in you.

X(m): Obviously people call you whore, sucker

Lei Lei: Yes and I've learnt to take shaming as a way for primal humans to judge and justify. I like living for myself and I don't feel terrible about it.

X: You are so strong, what is your opinion on feminism?

Lei Lei: Humanity is what I believe in. Males can lift weights well, females can birth humans well. Most of it is the same, and then there are beliefs like morals, ethics and all.

X(m): Can I "I think we should get going, we can discuss more at my place..

Lei Lei: Let us go to my place, we can talk more

X: Great, after a cup of coffee! I'll bring

Lei Lei: Let's go

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Series Index - here

...on a road somewhere

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Stranger: Hi..? (with a tensed expression)

X: Uhh yes, this must be pretty weird for you.

Stranger: Exactly, this is the first time.

X: Yes, worse than a virginity loss scenario..

Stranger: Yeah, we don’t talk like that in public.

X: I can understand, is it okay if we continue in English?

Stranger: Sure, doesn’t matter.

X: What do you do?

Stranger: I sit around, watch movies and do cute shit on internet.

X: Sounds fun, what about finances?

Stranger: The cute shit pays, and I sleep with beautiful men who treat me well.

X: At least you’re truthful. Can we discuss more?

Stranger: I am Ashley, and I would like to go to the moon one day. It’s not possible so I would rather be an influencer, an affluent one.

X(m): Yes, I am sure giving people advantage over oneself to gain something helps if you’re hot

Ashley: Influencing is difficult by the way, you’ve got to think of new shit all the time or keep track of ongoing ones. You have to use filters all the time, and do edits.. urghh lots of effort.

X: Yes I used to edit photos, I know the hassles. Monetization is something serious, guess I never wanted to try that out.

Ashley: I browse the internet whole day, and the pressure of creating content looms in the mind even while I sleep. It’s no less work than business if I am being honest.

X: I understand, it may get stressful at times. Consistency in the attention economy helps generate gains with steady growth.

Ashley: I like how you speak, does your tongue roll well?

X: I rap so I need to be good at it. Do you rap?

Stranger: No, but I brush my teeth.

X: Nice one! xD I smoke a lot and it affects the oral hygiene.

Ashley: I know right? By the way, I am going to the plaza and can be with you till the next crossing. If you want to continue this conversation...

X: Yes, let us be in touch. Should I tell you my number or the NFC tap works?

Stranger: Hmm I like your attitude. We’ll be in touch.

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Series Index - here

...somewhere near a cafe

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X(m): wow this is a hot day

Stranger: The weather report said it’s going to be a lot worse today.

X: Oh is it, I thought the weather was hot enough.

Stranger: I am Emily. I have some work later but I work in an air-conditioned building so it’s fine.

X: How convenient for you, I do not.

X(m): I guess your job pays well.

Emily: ...pays well and the earnings do the bills apart from being quite close, you know, that helps

X: I live nearby. Actually I am taking some time off.

Emily: You can try working out, that helps.

X(m): But

X: Of course, I am currently working in. What do you work on?

Emily: I am in a tech firm that trains A.I models to automate all forms of work. I am in management.

X: Ahh, so is the firm looking for techno-functional executives who can fill into the roles of trainers?

Emily: Yes precisely. You can give me a call if you’re interested. Whatsapp emilyash521..

X(m): ..I guess that’s one way of contact

X: Sure, will be in touch.

Emily: What do you plan to do next?

X: I’ll look into how macro-economics can be stabilized as a result of automation, and research on A.I safety

Emily: We are currently working on that. We can catch up you know if you aren’t busy

X(m): I mean, we can go to my place

Emily: I know this place we can go that’s close to here and discuss

X: Sounds good, let’s go

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Series Index - here

Conversessions

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Conversessions are interactions set in a fantasy-world where a quantum A.I X does not have access to other humans' streams. The streams that are accessible in real time are as follows:

1. Visualization(real world + thought in mind)
2. Sound(real world + generated in mind)
3. ~~Sensory Feelings~~

We explore conversations from X's perspective in the following posts.

Script style :

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X: bla bla bla -> real world

X(m): bla bla bla -> in mind

Index:

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1. Conversessions; Emily
2. Conversessions; Ashley
3. Conversessions; Lei Lei
4. ...sync in progress

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The video is a group discussion on the necessity to continue exploring particle physics using larger particle energy detectors involving higher energies to achieve further breakthroughs. As conveyed in the video, a project of this size requires a lot of resources both in terms of manpower, architecture and compute, besides a significant amount of money. This post is my personal take on the discussion as a citizen of the world.

Context

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Gavin begins with the idea of dark matter, trying to discover it in particle collider experiments using indirect observations. Dark matter cannot be directly discovered as it is not known exactly what we are looking for. As Bjørn points out correctly, dark matter results from the mathematical model of cosmic elements(galaxies, universal expansion) which uses this hypothesis to account for the currently unpredictable behavior of matter at large scales.

Gavin talks about exploring science in avenues previously left untouched. There is a reason for the same – the technology to understand the "particle interactions" exists today, that was not there earlier. It is not a simple matter of one element hits another to measure interactions, simulations are created in computers based on the by-products that are caught in the collider's detection mechanisms. Gavin says to "go and build colliders", but it is difficult to build one that is more massive than the last. People in multiple governments are involved, including contractors who will supply raw materials necessary. Sabine correctly points out the challenges that teams would face in building a significantly better collider, that is much larger than the currently existing ones. Gavin talks about "guaranteed discoveries", and the exciting new breakthroughs that would be unearthed and brought to light. Sabine wrongly talks about the "little output" that these breakthroughs are being referred to from her perspective, whereas the discoveries of particle physics supposedly reveal the fundamental elements in the universe.

Sabine wants to discover more in the realm of quantum mechanics and gravity. These are some of the fields which do not require heavy investments and can be done in regular environments to achieve results that could be used for large-scale enhancements, such as building efficient quantum computers. The understanding of gravity from a quantum perspective is still unclear as to what gives birth to the phenomenon, and this is another field she wants the scientific community to invest their time into.

Opinion

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I think exploring more of particle physics should be delayed. Following are the arguments I propose to justify my point of view.

• Particle physics require a lot of resources to be built in order to confirm the existence of certain particles beyond reasonable doubt, in the form of colliders. I believe the science behind colliders is simple, but it is resource and compute extensive. Time can be devoted towards coming up with better hacks so as to reduce the amount of resources necessary to get the necessary results, which would be important in the long run. The science behind building an efficient collider may be useful in fields like nuclear fusion, where the energy of initiation is high and containing the reaction is equally important.

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• Particle physics involve working with miniscule, short-lived particles. We may come across new particles which may occur under controlled conditions in a laboratory, a discovery as new as the next bacterium or virus that is synthesized or found out about. Reactions happening at the cosmic level involve high energies occurring in a seemingly random nature(involving huge masses instead of atoms) which is currently beyond understanding. Simulating it on a computer is the best humanity is doing at this point using mathematical models that may not be working at those scales.

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• Physicists might want to print their names on a research paper that comes across the next obscure short-lived particle in the universe, but the path that leads to the discovery is arduous. The architecture necessary to document the observations are expensive. The energy necessary to replicate the data multiple times in order to prove a point beyond reasonable doubt is equally high. These physicists, on the quest for image and recognition in the scientific community do themselves a favour, more than the Earth for whom these discoveries are supposed to benefit.

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• Fields like quantum behaviour, which involve studying entanglement and information exchange better explain the state of the universe we are currently living in(on Earth). Individual experiments may not reveal a huge breakthrough such as the hype that would be created upon discovery of a new particle, but in the long run they would be helpful in building new technology that may end up reducing energy consumption. The knowledge of a new particle may not have immediate benefits as opposed to the energy consumption required to prove existence beyond doubt, whereas quantum science requires much less energy to conduct and observe. Technology keeps on getting better and delaying particle physics exploration by a decade or two may speed up discoveries in the same field in future, where quantum technologies might be used to explore the universe at these scales instead of the traditional approach. We may be in a better position to make sense of these discoveries once we have a better understanding of quantum science.

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• Physicists often justify the field of particle physics by saying that the quest of knowledge is what science is about. This is true, but particle physics is not the only field where this saying is applicable. The hunger for knowledge can be satisfied in the fields of quantum technology, lattice geometry, gene dynamics amongst others which are important from a human perspective. Answering "why the mass of a neutron is what it is" may require answering a question like "under what conditions is the mass being measured as the energy of this particle is supposed to remain same", which may require testing the same under a variety of different conditions and there could be infinite of them. A question like "what energy was used to create a Higgs Boson" may throw off a particle physicist's preconceived notions, as these are nanosecond particles which are infrequent on Earth. [For example, the flavour of an orange may taste different depending upon the soil. Two lead atoms can be different based on their radioactivity]

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• Fields like quantum computing are resource extensive as they require low temperatures and expensive hardware. A.I compute can still be considered beneficial for the common people, but the more people use it, the more energy consumption it clocks. Given this situation, particle physics exploration can also be justified which will obviously involve consuming significantly lesser energy once built, which is why these fields should be subdued as much as possible. The money that is being spent on these resource-hungry technologies can be invested for Earth's welfare projects like afforestation. Incentivized afforestation would make the future a greener and cleaner place to perform exciting experiments that quench human beings' thirst for knowledge.

Conclusion

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Lobbying communities and powerful entities is a radical approach and should be prevented if possible, particularly if it upsets the energy balance on Earth. Harvesting energy via Dyson spheres, using quantum technology to solve difficult problems easily sound exciting, but a balanced and patient approach to get there is more important than rushing blindly to find solutions to the universe's mysteries. Current approaches are bearing heavy operational costs that is detrimental for the future generations who are supposed to reap the benefits of the knowledge we are accumulating today.