Kyrgizion

joined 1 year ago
[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 16 points 12 hours ago (3 children)

Wanna bet that gigafactory somehow gets closed down or cancelled before opening? Tesla might not even survive that long.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 1 points 18 hours ago (1 children)

Money. Hunting permits = $$$$

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 7 points 18 hours ago (3 children)

No matter how much life support they try to give to this ghoul of a game, it won't work. It was DOA and it has already missed its chance. Unless Bethesda suddenly pulls a Hello Games and starts updating it for 5+ years for free. We all know that's never going to happen, and modders have already lost interest as well.

Time to bury this turd in the latrine where it belongs.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 9 points 18 hours ago* (last edited 18 hours ago)

Couldn't have happened to a nicer dictatorship.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 6 points 20 hours ago

You're absolutely right, and just yesterday I signed up to join a numismatics club in a neighboring city. I don't know anyone there and this is rather out of character for me, but as you and others have said, staying in my little cocoon will never change my situation.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 2 points 20 hours ago (1 children)

Thanks for the well wishes. I'm already into stoicism - I read Marcus Aurelius' Meditations, and some Epictetus, but despite the fact that it all resonates with me, actually bringing it into practice is another thing. I'm still trying though.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 1 points 20 hours ago

I've been an avid weed smoker since my early 20's, but I do live in a country where it is 100% illegal and not available medically, so my supply is spotty. Then again, I just had all my teeth removed, so smoking right now would be a very bad idea anyway.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 6 points 20 hours ago (1 children)

Thanks for the kind words. I sort of bit the bullet and signed up for a numismatics club in a neighboring city. I don't know anyone there at all, but as others have said, I do have to put myself out there for anything to ever change. Well, I'm taking the first step.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 5 points 20 hours ago

Lol there's even people accusing me of making it up or going to an illegal dentistry.

If you really want I can post pictures, but I warn you; they really aren't pretty. I suppose I could also post the two or three pages of "aftercare" I got.

All in all, it seems a case of "This hasn't ever happened to me, and it's not my experience, so therefore, it can't have happened to anyone, ever". Whatever floats your boat.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 9 points 20 hours ago (1 children)

I feel this. I grew up in the '90s so tech was totally my thing. I couldn't find work in my chosen field (journalism, graduated in 2008... yeah) so I reschooled myself to sysadmin. At the start I was so excited to learn all the tech stacks and possibilities.

Nowadays, it's just an endless queue of tickets with Microsoft Azure, AWS or Fujitsu. You don't actually own any of your infrastructure, and in case of serious disaster your hands are practically tied. Every "new" feature that comes out is more hassle and problems than it ever solves, and every single fucking security update breaks something, somewhere.

All in all, I'm ready to turn in my cellphone, pc and laptop and go live in a forest, happy if I never have to touch anything electronic ever again.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 6 points 20 hours ago* (last edited 20 hours ago)

The opposite. I've given up hobbies because I couldn't afford them anymore. I started collecting ancient coins at the start of the pandemic. The same coins that sold for 50-100 bucks back then now routinely fetch 500-600. The supply hasn't changed, but demand has skyrocketed. I'm at a point where I'm ready to give it up completely.

[–] Kyrgizion@lemmy.world 3 points 20 hours ago (2 children)

Diplomats and Judges. Name a more iconic duo in exploiting their "lessers".

 

I'm 40 years old, in a crappy job without prospects despite degrees, and I have 0 friends.

I used to have a grand total of 2 friends before Covid, but then we lost contact. I've tried to rekindle, but all effort was onesided so I stopped.

I'm a lifelong spineless people pleaser despite lots of therapy, and the ironic thing is that this turns people off of you instead of having them like you.

At this point I don't see any reasons to continue trying.

If I had one wish in life, it would be to be a stereotypical asshole with actual self esteem - those are the kinds of people who seem to be anle to reach all of their goals and have others worship the ground they walk on.

But as for me, I'm so turned off by other people in general that I would probably be morbidly amused to read, oh I dunno, that Moscow nuked Kiev (or vive versa), that Jerusalem is burning, or that my hometown was wiped away by a hurricane.

Not to be "edgy". It's emotionally debilitating, and to be clear I don't enjoy/wish for human suffering.

I've just become as indifferent to it as the world seems to be to me. Simple tit for tat.

I'm tired. Kinda hoped I wouldn't wake up from my anaesthesia today. Ah well.

 

EDIT; I can't reply to everyone individually but thanks for all the suggestions! Opiates are out of the question, doctors here will only prescribe those in terms of absolutely extreme suffering or end of life care. I also don't particularly feel interested in developing a hard drug habit. Diclofenac and such are available but also only on separate prescriptions, I'd have to visit another doctor for that. I'm well stocked on paracetamol & ibuprofen, and apart from that, lots of ice cream, pudding & soup :)

Also, since a fair few people seem to doubt the veracity of my story, here's the 22 extracted teeth (the other 10 were already gone in previous extractions).

 

Even IF you somehow manage to navigate today's maze of failures, rejections and heartbreak, what is your reward? To live yet another day in misery? To wait until climate change, war or disease does away with us?

A reward would be to be able to rest. I don't mean death per sé, but it seems like that's the only real-life thing left available to people like us.

Yes, yes, I know very well that "if nothing has meaning, YOU get to choose the meaning". Except I don't. Maybe if I was rich or powerful. But I'm poor, in poor health and powerless.

I read Camus' Sisiphus, and I, for one, cannot possibly imagine him happy.

 
 

AI inflicted this upon my retina, so you shall suffer the same fate.

 

Enjoying some rays in the yard.

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