IvyRaven

joined 1 year ago
[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 20 points 1 day ago (4 children)

No one wants to place the blame on the IDF or Netenyahu it's always 'Dems'. Well hey if they get wiped out under Trump I'm sure that'll be Dems fault too

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 2 points 2 days ago (1 children)

I appreciate that you can get manifested pages without having to grind the base pages elsewhere. They're still too stingy with the eerie engrams though.

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 3 points 3 weeks ago

Oh for sure. I'll hyper focus on something and become obsessed with it. Then when I pull the trigger on it the fear that I've made a poor choice will begin to build. I'm kind of dealing with that with my return to Warhammer 40,000 (40k is the common abbreviation). Sucks because nothing wrong with my choice persay but I also want to do this other stuff instead. Literally debated for about two months before making the choice and still feel like I picked wrong. Oh well -_-

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Ah I see. Thanks for the info. Will have to keep it in mind!

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 2 points 1 month ago (3 children)

Never heard of that. Is it a reader? My issue is that the text and such is just tiny on PDFs. I had the same issue reading e-books for school. It's just easier and more accessible for me to read the physical medium. But the cost of it keeps me out of reading them. Do have a bunch of PDF comics from Humble Bundle I need to try to read xD

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 4 points 1 month ago (5 children)

I love comics, and manga, but they're hard for me to read due to the cost. Digital comic bundles are great but then I run afoul of my issue with reading PDFs (it's really hard for me to read digital comics/books like borderline impossible for me).

Mostly I was reading Marvel with a little DC. Tried to stick to offbrand stuff in those lines instead of the X-Men, Avengers, or Batman etc.

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 12 points 1 month ago

Up and down. Anxiety, at least one auto immune disorder (likely another one or two since I have like no energy fairly often), no job (see: anxiety), no friends (see: everything else), and when I stop and let the thoughts start up or if something really sets me back I spiral into a depressive hole. All and all it's okay right now. Everything sucks but I'm making the best of it and most days are more middle ground than anything. Thankfully I live with my mom and she is supportive of me and just wants to help me find happiness (she sees it as repaying a shitty childhood). I try to not abuse her generosity so I cook for her and help her with stuff.

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 4 points 2 months ago (1 children)

Last year I suffered a lot of social loss and had become extremely isolated due to it. Over the last year I've been trying to do more of me and found a lot more good in my life while doing that. I'm still extremely isolated outside of interacting with my mom but it doesn't bother me like it once did. So now I do the things I want to do when I want to do them and not waste time and/or energy looking for friends, groups, etc (especially when they'll ditch me later and destroy my life in the process, this has happened with every friend/group my entire 40 years of living).

Basically I'm doing me and it's been really nice. I'm getting back into Warhammer 40,000 (40k), enjoying my time in World of Warcraft, and all around much happier while doing many of my previous activities like watching anime.

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 8 points 2 months ago

Seeing it again yeah lol

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 25 points 2 months ago (2 children)

For me a lot of meltdowns feel like spiraling. Unable to communicate how I feel, feeling alone/separated, racing thoughts that run the gamete from anxious to depressing. Typically I want to reach out and connect to someone but I can't and that makes it worse somehow. It's scary to deal with especially as a lot of it feels so irrational yet it has a real impact.

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 1 points 2 months ago

Oshi no Ko S2 has been satisfying so far. This has been a really bleh season of anime overall for me. Heavy fan service and/or a step away from outright hentai will keep me from watching something and this summer has felt like a lot of fetishy stuff. And since most shows revolve around teens I just can't watch that stuff.

[–] IvyRaven@midwest.social 3 points 3 months ago

Luckily haven't had it on the top of the foot, but I've banged the bottom of my foot on stuff to try to itch it. Deep in the foot itch and unfortunately the stuff I do never helps for very long.

 

So I'm a shut-in with a ton of problems and no money. My life revolves around World of Warcraft and Destiny 2 which is sad in its own right I'm sure. Anyway every single time I try to find a community (guild or clan) it goes to hell within a month or so. They always say I'm too negative about the game or my performance. No matter what I do/say it apparently always comes across as 'negative' and they see it as hurting their community. Funny enough these communities are always dead and I'm talking into a void trying to engage people.

Sorry I'm not sure why I'm posting this. Just had another group tell me I was getting kicked due to negativity and I'm so tired of it. I don't have any friends, I'm always starting over from scratch and even if I try my hardest it still ends the same way. Don't even feel that I'm being negative since I just say bugs me. Sorry. Feel like I could cry, because of everything, and I can't even do that.

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