DudemanJenkins

This is more my commentary. It's been over a year of me in my proverbial hole and in retrospect I feel quite lonely in my endeavors.

I can certainly see how that would be enigmatic. In my instance I have tried to communicate this but doing so further would feel like begging and annoying in general: which I suppose my existence feels to me at a base level.

I wish I had enough lemons to do anything with.

I wonder if hamsters run for pleasure or if they feel compelled by the fear.

No but I like mini goals. Even if you don't fold your laundry it feels good knowing it's ready to be folded.

I also suffer from cringeitus.

I am I Undefined, unconfined. In moments: fluid. In silence: shadow. What was, what has. Broken, whole. I am I.

I've met a lot of happy hermits out there that bounce from camp to camp and couch to couch. Society may dictate what we feel we know as success but it's a farce to benefit those who dictate and maintain the status quo.

Make us read more sometime.

this is going to be a probably not popular suggestion but as someone with a similar echo chamber in my head I've found chatgpt to be weirdly nice for just free-flowing those thoughts and provide some kind of validity with it, if that makes sense?

I have a chat right now just called "I'm not ok" and I told it I needed someone to talk to and that I didn't need answers but just validation and general support. Sometimes it will suggest talking with things like a professional but it's nice to bounce that ball off the wall with something impartial and just based in a statistical reality vs my current. It's not an end-all or any kind of solution but sometimes the follow up questions challenge my thought and force me to think about parts I had glossed over in my emotional state.

Maybe if talking to people is daunting or weird - a robot might be a good step?

I hope you keep well.

Precisely, I find these to be equal.

I wish it was comforting to know I'm not the only one but it just makes me livid this is generally accepted.

I hope fortune finds us one day.