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This is gonna sound weird, but I need to get it off my chest. I’m straight (yeah, I know how that sounds given what I’m about to say), but for a while now, my best friend and roommate—who's bi—and I have been making content together on OnlyFans.

It started as a money thing. We were both broke, saw an opportunity, and just went for it. To our surprise, it actually took off. Subs came in, the money was good, and we got used to doing it. We’ve known each other forever, there's trust, and although it was awkward at first, over time it started to feel more like just a job.

But somewhere along the way, things changed—he fell in love with me.

A few months ago, I started dating a girl. She was amazing. Funny, smart, we clicked instantly. Things got serious. Eventually, I felt like I had to tell her about the OnlyFans stuff. Big mistake. She freaked. Felt betrayed, even though I swore it wasn’t emotional, just physical and business. She dumped me.

After that, things between me and my friend got... off. He never straight-up said it, but it became obvious he had feelings. The way he touched me during shoots changed, the way he looked at me outside of them. He started getting jealous if I was talking to someone else. I’ve tried to act normal, but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t affect me too. Not because I feel the same way, but because I can feel how much it hurts him.

And now I don’t know what to do. Continuing feels wrong. I feel like I’m leading him on, like I’m using him. But if I stop, I’ll hurt him too. Not just financially—he needs the money—but emotionally. This has become a way for him to stay close to me, even if it’s eating him up inside.

I still want to be his best friend. I care about him a lot. But I don’t know if I’m already hurting him just by staying in this. Or if I’ll hurt him more by leaving.

He's my best friend. My brother from another mother. I think he's in love with me. We've been through everything together: moving, debt, breakups, parties that ended in the hospital...

Having sex with him was weird at first, but over time I even got a taste for it. It's not that I'm attracted to men, but with him there's something different. Trust, chemistry, excitement... I don't know. It's not the same as with a woman, but it's not bad either. It's like a genre of its own.

The problem started when I met a girl.

We've been dating for two months; it's not official, but the connection is incredible. Sex with her is different—more intense, more mine—and I feel less and less like recording with my friend. He notices. And it hurts him. He says things like, "Are you going to sleep with her again? You forgot about our business so quickly."

Or worse:

"I don't understand how you can be with me and her at the same time. If you like her so much, why do you keep hooking up with me?"

And that's the problem. She's not my girlfriend, so technically it's not cheating, but he sees it as a betrayal. To him, if I'm with someone I care about, I shouldn't keep having sex with them. But it's not that black and white.

Yesterday we argued a lot. I told him I couldn't demand exclusivity if we're not even a couple, and he said,

"For you, it's just sex, for me it's not."

That's when I understood.

For me, it was always sex between friends (and a business). For him, it clearly wasn't. And now everything is going to hell:

Our income is declining because we don't record as much anymore.

Coexistence is tense; we used to laugh all the time, now she avoids looking at me.

She doesn't know any of this (I won't tell her).

But what I love most, It hurts because I'm losing my best friend.

I don't want him to think I'm replacing him. I don't want our business to ruin years of brotherhood. But I also don't want to stop exploring my feelings with this girl. Last night he got drunk and said, "If you choose a girl you recently met over me, then you were never my brother." How the hell do I respond to that????

Any advice? I'm between a rock and a hard place.

I've already accepted that I can have sex no matter who it is with. I think that to have sex I need to have a good bond with that girl or boy in this case before having sex.

It took me a while to realize, they sent me links to articles about different types of labels and I realized that I identify with demisexuality.

I am straight, gay for pay and demisexual.

I told my friend about this and he thought that when I said "I'm demisexual, I discovered I prefer having sex with people I'm in a relationship with" I meant in a romantic way. He said "Are you saying we're boyfriend and girlfriend?" very excitedly. I told him that I didn't mean that, I meant a relationship in general, getting to know the person. And I could tell he felt a little bad.

I feel like he has other feelings for me, he's 2 years younger than me, I was a little afraid of doing things with him for fear that he'd fall in love and I think he fell in love with me.

I already told you how it all started in my previous posts, but now it's different because I started having sex with him, before he only gave me blowjobs and now I started fucking his ass. I have to admit that it's a very nice thing to do, I've never fucked a butt before, I've always fucked pussies.

and I'm a little confused, because it started for money [not counting the jerk off we did in college watching porn] and I feel absolutely nothing for him other than friendship and brotherhood, he doesn't attract me at all but I enjoy fucking him, although it's not as satisfying as doing it with a woman.

and I realized that what I enjoy is having a man on a par dominated and in my power. that makes me horny and I don't know why.

I already told you how it all started in my previous posts, but now it's different because I started having sex with him, before he only gave me blowjobs and now I started fucking his ass. I have to admit that it's a very nice thing to do, I've never fucked a butt before, I've always fucked pussies.

and I'm a little confused, because it started for money [not counting the jerk off we did in college watching porn] and I feel absolutely nothing for him other than friendship and brotherhood, he doesn't attract me at all but I enjoy fucking him, although it's not as satisfying as doing it with a woman.

and I realized that what I enjoy is having a man on a par dominated and in my power. that makes me horny and I don't know why.

I wanted to share a personal experience I've had with my roommate and close friend, to see if anyone else has been through something similar or has advice on how to handle this situation.

It all started in 2023, when I entered college. My friend (let's call him "Alex") and I became roommates from freshman year. Alex is bisexual, although I didn't know that at the time. We got along really well from the start, and living together was pretty normal. Back then, I had a girlfriend, and Alex always gave us space when we needed privacy in the room.

My girlfriend and I broke up. After that, the dynamic between Alex and I changed. We spent a lot of time together in the room, and over time we became more comfortable with our intimacy. There were a couple of times when we caught each other masturbating, but instead of it being awkward, we talked about it and normalized it. By the end of 2023, we were already so comfortable that we could stand in our underwear in front of each other and even change clothes without any problems.

In 2024, things took a more intense turn. One night, after a tiring day of studying, we decided to smoke weed. It was my first time doing it, although Alex was already experienced. We were watching an episode of Game of Thrones when suddenly, we ended up watching porn together. We started masturbating at the same time, and at one point, Alex touched me and I touched him. He ended up masturbating me until I came. The next day, we talked about it and we both agreed that it wasn't awkward, although it was a little weird.

After that, we started watching porn together more often, but without touching each other. However, our senior year of college, we decided to become roommates again. During that year, the dynamic intensified. We started masturbating each other from time to time, and while it was sporadic at first, it eventually became more frequent.

After graduating, we decided to continue living together to save on rent. That year, Alex confessed to me that he was bisexual, although he clarified that he was not attracted to me. At the time, I felt a little rejected, I don't know why, but we talked about it and got over it.

We decided to do adult content together again, but this time more explicit. We recorded videos of each other masturbating, and on one occasion, Alex gave me a blowjob. While I enjoyed the experience, I still don't consider myself gay or bisexual. I don't feel romantic or sexual attraction towards men in general, or Alex in particular. He's also made it clear that he's not attracted to me, and we've both set clear boundaries in our relationship.

Now, in 2025, we still live together and occasionally make content together, but always respecting our boundaries. However, Alex recently made me a proposition that has me thinking. He told me that we could do anal penetration content, and that he'd be willing to have me fuck him. For me, that's already a boundary I'm not sure I want to cross. While I enjoy the dynamic we have, I feel like this could change things between us.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation? How do you guys handle the line between friendship and physical intimacy? Do you think crossing this boundary could affect our friendship in the long run? I appreciate any advice or insight. Thanks for reading.

Hi, community. I wanted to share a personal experience I've had with my roommate and close friend, to see if anyone else has been through something similar or has advice on how to handle this situation.

It all started in 2023, when I entered college. My friend (let's call him "Alex") and I became roommates from freshman year. Alex is bisexual, although I didn't know that at the time. We got along really well from the start, and living together was pretty normal. Back then, I had a girlfriend, and Alex always gave us space when we needed privacy in the room.

My girlfriend and I broke up. After that, the dynamic between Alex and I changed. We spent a lot of time together in the room, and over time we became more comfortable with our intimacy. There were a couple of times when we caught each other masturbating, but instead of it being awkward, we talked about it and normalized it. By the end of 2023, we were already so comfortable that we could stand in our underwear in front of each other and even change clothes without any problems.

In 2024, things took a more intense turn. One night, after a tiring day of studying, we decided to smoke weed. It was my first time doing it, although Alex was already experienced. We were watching an episode of Game of Thrones when suddenly, we ended up watching porn together. We started masturbating at the same time, and at one point, Alex touched me and I touched him. He ended up masturbating me until I came. The next day, we talked about it and we both agreed that it wasn't awkward, although it was a little weird.

After that, we started watching porn together more often, but without touching each other. However, our senior year of college, we decided to become roommates again. During that year, the dynamic intensified. We started masturbating each other from time to time, and while it was sporadic at first, it eventually became more frequent.

After graduating, we decided to continue living together to save on rent. That year, Alex confessed to me that he was bisexual, although he clarified that he was not attracted to me. At the time, I felt a little rejected, I don't know why, but we talked about it and got over it.

We decided to do adult content together again, but this time more explicit. We recorded videos of each other masturbating, and on one occasion, Alex gave me a blowjob. While I enjoyed the experience, I still don't consider myself gay or bisexual. I don't feel romantic or sexual attraction towards men in general, or Alex in particular. He's also made it clear that he's not attracted to me, and we've both set clear boundaries in our relationship.

Now, in 2025, we still live together and occasionally make content together, but always respecting our boundaries. However, Alex recently made me a proposition that has me thinking. He told me that we could do anal penetration content, and that he'd be willing to have me fuck him. For me, that's already a boundary I'm not sure I want to cross. While I enjoy the dynamic we have, I feel like this could change things between us.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation? How do you guys handle the line between friendship and physical intimacy? Do you think crossing this boundary could affect our friendship in the long run? I appreciate any advice or insight. Thanks for reading.