Melbourne

In this year, I have

• seen a therapist who thinks I have autism. If I didn't have a whole embarrassing emotional outburst to my ex, I wouldn't have been able to find a pattern of shitty autistic behaviour, and doing so has helped a lot with the self-compassion side of things.
• worked on the tolerating uncertainty and fear of abandonment stuff, and having enough going on in my life to the point where I can recognise anxious attachment patterns and redirect formerly prominent schemas
• started music lessons
• tried meal prepping and group workout classes
• leaned on my friends and had lots of fun being silly
• watched many great movies (I think this was one of the best outcomes of the relationship besides all the lessons - he made me realise I'm a movie person, I made him realise he should be a better listener?)
• seen some live music - I want to see more
• grown into myself a bit more and felt a bit more confident in who I am
• realised that I'm masking a lot of the time socially and that's probably why I'm always exhausted when I'm not hanging around super close people

re: dating, it would be nice to try again, but I'm kind of just hoping that works out in the background if it's meant to. I don't really want to go on the apps because I'm not photogenic, even though online communication is easier. Maybe next year, but for now, I'm going to enjoy my peace.✌️ and whoever comes into my life, whether it's friends, acquaintances or a potential partner, will not take my peace away from me :))